Helpless At Last

To those who read my blogs,

My neck pain came back with a vengeance over the weekend. It was brutal. I was at a retreat with the four major Vietnamese Churches in Alberta, and during the last session I could hardly move. There was even talk about taking me to the hospital, but luckily someone there was a paramedic and assured me that was not necessary. So, onto the real meat of the story.

My neck was in pain and I just wanted to sleep, so I went to a room with some people to do that. 2 guys who I mentor on and off were there to see me through and here is where it gets interesting for me. I needed a 15 year old boy to actually lower me into bed. I was in that much pain. Have you ever felt so bad you needed someone who is younger than you to help you in that way? I'm 22 now, not 102. I shouldn't need this kind of assistance. I was asking God what I could learn from this and I think He told me.

You see, the speaker for the weekend stressed one main point: God wants us to fully rely on Him to live out the Christian walk. I have been doing so many things on my own strength to try and fulfill God's call on my life (in fact, that is part of the reason I left my old Church) but God wants to live this life through me. He wants me to rely on Him when I am weak (which is all the time). I hope that I am not too proud to listen.

There. A post NOT about girls. See? I have a bit of depth to me!

- Joshua