To those who read my blog,
I want you all to know that I am not all that bad at begining interactions with girls. I have received training from the best in that area. I can go up to most girls who do not know me too well and turn on the charm to it's fullest potential. In fact, if you were to set me loose on a bar, I bet you I could get at least one number within an hour without relying on buying her an alchoholic drink (i think I'd get her a coke or something). My problem is the follow through. Girls get my charm, and then it's like I've got nothing else to give them. I think it is mostly a problem of falsehoods.
When I turn on my charm, sure that's a part of me, but it's not who I am on a daily basis. I don't really know who I am on a daily basis. It changes all the time...
I wrote in another blog that I become a little bit creepy... maybe I do, and maybe that's a real part of me as well. A part that is not welcomed but a part none the less. Maybe, the best option for me right now is to avoid women at all costs. That would work except I know myself too well. I like being around women and I like joking around with them. I think a more realistic goal for me is to spend some more time with God trying to figure out who I am. Maybe then I will know what I am unleashing when I see certain girls and what I am holding back.
Pray for me readers, I am but a fool in the matters of the heart.
Sincerely,
Joshua T. Aitkenhead
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